THE BASICS

The Way to TOE

As many other people somewhen I was asking myself questions about life, about human, about the universe.
What is over there behind starts?
What is life and what is death?
How we are constructed?
What is there inside of atoms?
What exists and what happens around us in the universe?
Why do we exist?
What happens after death?
What values are really worthwhile to be used as goals of life?
What should I do in my life and what goals should I set to myself?

I wanted to know what the universe is and what my role in it is.
I was searching for a sense of life.

This was the first and main reason why I came to physics.
I've read everything I found interesting on the subjects and decided to start to build self development systems from the very spring – from complete understanding of the universe.

I had plans.
Last items were physics and mathematics as they were the hardest on the list.

Finally I reached them.
I was carefully examining and learning all topics.
When I came to the substance I came across a little disappointment.
It appeared that in general physics knows nothing about nature.
All it deals with are approximate descriptions of limited segments of processes.
Nearly each process has own theory.
Any substantial question has no answer.
Dozens of different theories for different processes.
Thousands of questions.

I was going for so long to this heart of understanding.
I have already built all my expectations around it by that time.
And I found emptiness.
I – a boy in this universe.
Planet earth.
I was watching at starts. I was looking around. I was thinking.
I had to start my life but I had complete emptiness inside.
How to live?
Towards what to live?

I've tried to find something on the subject.
But there were mostly tons of nonsense.

I was building all my expectations to start my life this way and I had no other options and nowhere to go.
I was considering understanding of the universe as a start and I was planning to find all answers in physics.
I was teaching myself for so long that life without substantial background has no sense.
How could I speak about happiness and build it if I knew practically nothing about environment I was living in.
Any solid question was destined to remain unanswered.

I couldn't back down by definition. I had nowhere to go back.
I had nothing to lose.
So I came back to physics and mathematics to start at least with something.
I was determined to come till the end.
I could say that I was ready to give my life in the sake of this goal but I had nothing to give.
I was ready to give my emptiness.
I was willing to fight till the last drop of my emptiness.

So the quest continued.
Many months of reading, learning, trying...
Many hundreds of days and nights.
Dozens of wasted notebooks and pens.

By that time I've almost calmed down.
I saw different ways of living.
I was on the way to escape.
I was choosing new direction and was slowly going away from physics.
But than happed unexpected huge luck in my life.
Real huge luck.
I've started to check my assumptions.
Some months later I saw the light.
Now I had something to live for.
Now I was ready to set my life for the goal.

I did quit job, rent separate flat and started to work like crazy.

Notebooks, pens, supermarket, food, home, green trees, snow, again green trees.
I didn't distinguish days and nights. Main food – coffee.
Common picture is when you break for a moment in the evening and feel like you've forgotten to do something.
Moment of thinking and you understand that you've forgotten to eat.
It all didn't matter.

The hardest is the last half of a year.
Then you find an error or a small inconsistency and start another last hardest half of a year.
Small details can take months to understand and solve.
Constant destructive stress.
But by that time I learned not to compromise.
Nothing matters.
Especially when you can touch your dream.

For the years spent in search of truth I had completely changed.
I just did not accept false.
I had to remove uncertainty of the future to start to live.
I wanted to know where my mind will go after death.
You either understand or not.
You're either living or dying.
Nothing or all.

At the end I was confidently breaking every obstacle on the way to the complete and perfect understanding.
The last keys to completion were being found in the state of falling to sleep.
I did not want to go to sleep before I had clarified all smallest details.
There were just a few of them by that time.
Coffee, a pen and a paper.

One and a half of a month to understand the last tiny piece of this puzzle.
Though at first, half a year before it seemed to be pretty obvious and I was planning to spend just about one day on it.
But I was happy.
I did set up my mind to work until I can say just two words about the theory – complete and perfect.
I won.
I conquered the universe with my mind.

Mathematics is rewritten at basis.
Physics is rewritten practically completely.
Chemistry is perfect automatically after you have physics though I've spent some time to describe specific to this area things.
I had to dig deeply into philosophy and made some order there too.
If you want to change basic things in such areas as physics or mathematics then philosophy goes nearby.
You have to deal with all of them at once.

Some probably will suffer shock here.
It concerns mathematics.
When you state that something is complete and perfect it means that everything behind is complete and perfect.
The matter is that TOE cannot be solved with tools which are proved to be incomplete and even don't have definition of truth as shown Gödel, Tarsky and others.
Probably for many people this is itself much more significant achievement ever known than the physics.
Maybe I should stop here more but I won't.
My goal was physics.
I just was removing obstacles.
And incomplete mathematics was one of them.
These basic changes in both of them resulted in a pretty different scientific language used for TOE.

Everything probably would be great or different if... I wasn't considering everything through the perspective of philosophy, psychology, sense of life and all the questions above and then applying exact sciences back to these areas.

You can imagine someone so purposeful as me at that period sitting at the table with a pen upon a notebook.
Years spent on search of sense of life to fill emptiness and to get something to live for.
In the middle I did set goals and was working to complete them and TOE.
So I'm sitting at the table with a pen and a paper.
Then I raise my head. Freeze. And spend a couple of hours in deep thinking not moving with notes of shock on my face.
That how I was beginning to understand. Things were changing. Half a day later the goals were nearly at the opposite direction.
I had to complete the TOE but the other goals were changing dramatically.
And the sense of this prelude is that I was completely changing in hours after of years of purposeful self-programming towards different direction.
Interesting things happen when the door starts to open.
The more you continue to think and work to complete TOE and thus getting closer to truth the more you understand and the more the direction of your life changes.
When you are reaching the truth you start to understand really strange and unexpected things.
I was getting such strong turns in the perception of reality and in the direction of living which I would never ever predict.
I just did stand up and said “This is not what I was looking for. Absolutely not the sort of thing.”
Most results in general look like you expect, but some are different.
And they are absolutely unexpected.
The changes happen really quickly.
Probably because of proof based on strong scientific background.
You just take a pen and a paper to deduce formulas and algorithms to your happiness with scientific precision but behind the door there are different and unexpected things.
You just stop and say “I was going here not for this” but when there's unbreakable scientific background you do not argue and there is no way back.
When you understand all why and how, what's inside of atoms of your body and in the space around and what is out there in the universe then things like sense of life change.
And it is under question is it good or bad to know all that information for human.

TOE.
The truth.
This is what changed almost everything for me.

Not a single letter in my mind which corresponds to TOE has changed since then.
It is unnecessary.
The opposite statement is more correct – you cannot change TOE.
You cannot change the basic laws of the universe.

Some people state that physics knows 5% of the universe.
In reality from this point of view physics isn't even close to a billionth fraction of a percent to describing the universe.
When you know the basic laws you can compose natural effects like with children's meccano.
Having even small number of variable basic components you can compose nearly infinite number of outcomes.
It is combinatorics.
Though physics decided to concentrate on enumerating all the outcomes observed on earth and to some extent from earth.
And of course reaching a billionth fraction of one percent of knowledge of the universe is absolutely unachievable task even if all people will start doing only physics and will do it till the end of humanity.
People combine tables of particles but the particles which fly from cosmos do not fit in these tables.
Our observations of speed of light, gravitation, structures of galaxies and of many other things do not obey to our knowledge even concerning our closest cosmic surroundings.
But by some reasons this tiny point in the universe called earth is considered to be 5% of the universe (the structure of stars including the sun and processes inside of them remain almost unexplored).
Maybe from point of view of existing science it is correct calculation.
I've drifted apart long ago.

Only correct unification is the answer.
In fact it's only start.
Then you have to go through all of the physics, chemistry and some other sciences with this knowledge and explain everything there.
Complete and perfect correspondence of absolutely everything that concerns explaining and describing the universe including philosophy to this knowledge is the TOE.

From the start you have dozens of thousands of questions.
Then you narrow them to hundreds.
Then to dozens.
Then remains only one.

A few months of hitting against the wall and you understand that it's unachievable.
You have perfect fashionable car with one tiny speck of dust.
And you can't do anything with it.

You've run out of all plans long ago.
Complete bankruptcy is long behind.
The word compromise is out of use long ago.
The only sense of life – to reach absolute truth and to find sense of life.
And nothing else matters.
And you've faced reality – complete perfection is unachievable.
But nothing else matters.
And you continue.

A room, a pen and a paper.
You don't want to fall asleep.
Long weeks of self-destruction.
And no results.
The contradiction seems unsolvable.

Finally you decide to escape.
But there's nowhere to escape.
When you teach yourself for many years that your life must start from understanding then you just want to know the truth, your destination, what's inside and what's outside, what happens after.
You just do not accept false.
Nothing matters.
And you continue self-destruction.

All assumptions one by one get scattered to ashes.
But you don't stop.

Universe. Galaxy. Solar system. Earth. City. Flat. I
am sitting on the bed like suspended in the vacuum particle and observe the twisting string of thought, cherish it to not to distract the attention from my last and the only hope.
I refused this world but I didn't know where to go.
The destination was unknown.
I was sitting on my bed, thinking and staring at the wall being in a slowed down hypnotic sleep.
Caffeine's running through the veins.
Nothing exists around.
Nothing matters.

Days are slowly passing by.
Early morning – fall to sleep. Evening – wake up, raise head and body and continue to think.

It was night from 20th to 21st of April of 2008.
I was lying on my bed hardly trying not to close my eyes and not to fall asleep.
I didn't use a pen and a paper. I was imaginary writing on the walls.
Another wide-rage brainstorm together with the fight for not to fall asleep.

Suddenly I jump off the bed, grasp a pen and a paper and write...

Double check.
Triple check.

Victory.

Complete perfection in the respect of understanding the universe is achievable.

Then complete turn to human.
Series of shocks.

Slow deliberation.
No more questions to ask.

The universe is conquered.

No need to hurry.
If you know how to affect the world outside of the cage the way you need.

I know what is worth spending time and what is not for me.
I know my final destination and what I'll be doing after my death.
I know how I should live.

It'll be funny for you to know the final question as your physics just gives name to each process and goes further to naming all the other combinations in the sake of worthless prizes.

This was the history.

Now coming back to the things that I was going to talk about.
Let's consider earth-bound human and try to operate with what you have in science not taking into consideration TOE.
And I will almost not dig into any details and will stay at high and obvious level as here we still can talk similar scientific languages.

Main questions are the following:
What is out there in the universe beyond our perception?
What is inside of human or behind the atoms of human that keeps these atoms together in the form of human and governs mental processes?
What happens with all that after death?

An atom.
Field, waves and similar substances which we mostly cannot directly perceive.
There are smaller particles inside of atoms.
Interactions between parts of atoms in physics are assigned to virtual particles which carry force.
Roughly, here physics stops.

The substances which we perceive directly can interact with substances which we do not perceive directly.
These interactions may be strong or week.
Bodies also interact through field.
Waves can affect matter and the result of such influence we perceive directly.
Matter can affect waves and for instance absorb or reflect them.
Some substances can be converted into another.

All the details are insignificant here.
Let's consider the essence of the question.

There's some material representation of human which we can observe.
There's something inside what governs and what we cannot see and perceive directly.

Can it exist beside human body?
Can it preserve shape the same way as human body does?
And other similar questions about hidden behind human processes and substances.

We know that substances which we don't perceive directly can exist and travel separately from the matter that we can see.
There are different substances in the universe and as a first approximation we can generalize properties of one substance and assume that the other substances also can have such properties.

Another question concerns the substances which govern interactions inside of atoms and between them.
What is it?
How it works?
For now these things are accounted for imaginary or virtual particles which carry force.

And the conclusion here is the following:
if physics states that it knows 5% of the universe (let's suppose here that it is true though in reality it isn't close even many orders to 5%)
than you can state nearly anything about internal world of atoms, interactions, and in fact about internals of anything or about the cosmos which is beyond our perception and with high probability it may be true and may exist somewhere in the universe or around us and inside of us as physics cannot neither prove nor disprove your assumptions.

The funniest thing here is that the physicists are the very people who know that the substantial questions have no answers when outsiders (as me in the past) suppose that physics knows everything about the construction of the universe.

For now we have found out that
(1) There are different substances in the space which we don't see but which fly around and influence matter that we can see.
(2) There's something inside that governs atoms and sometimes in a very complex way as we can see in the case of human.
(3) In general science knows nothing about nature. Physics deals with approximate descriptions of limited segments of processes.
(4) It's unjustifiable for modern science to throw away or deny a lot of things even those which may seem strange from the first view when it knows practically nothing about nature.

And the questions are:
What are there inside of atoms of a human that governs us and all the processes including mental?
What are these mental processes which mathematical logic cannot understand and describe?
What are these forces that physics cannot understand?
What is force, how many of them exist in the universe and how do they work?
How does for instance elasticity work?
What is energy?

And actually what I was going to say by all these reasoning: all these questions should answer TOE – Theory of Everything.

Some speak about Big Bang.
But what was before?
How all that did happen and why?
Who or what did govern that all?

What's inside of starts and how do they work?
Why motion of stars and galaxies do not obey to the laws of gravitation we have here in solar system?
Why the universe is expanding with acceleration?
Where do fly stars and galaxies during expansion?
How big is the universe?
What is out there?

How do objects interact on earth and in cosmos?
Why charged particles interact stronger than only through gravitation?
What means “energy supplies on earth,” where this energy is stored, how to use it and what are the correct answers to all the other questions concerning this subject?

And of course the most interesting questions like “what and how governs human and what happens with all that after death?”

The question about existence of any substance which we do not perceive even indirectly may seem for you as absolutely unsolvable.

And these questions TOE should answer also
as well as many others.
In fact it shouldn't.
It must.
And honestly it does.

It answers even unanswerable at first glance questions such as: what is out there in the universe beyond our direct and indirect perception.

Next.

There's something inside and outside that governs you.
The most sad thing here is that this is one-directional process.
Information and control flows to you but does not flow back from you.
Just one-directional flows from inside and from outside to you.
You don't know what's inside and what's outside.
You don't know how it works and how to use it.

Some approximation — it's like you have an animal in a cage.
Something born. Something dies.
You observe and govern.
Nothing's affected outside the world of the cage. Neither during the lifetime of its inhabitants nor after their death.
There's no understanding exists inside the cage. No control.

Only having reached the truth during your life you obtain ability to decide.
Otherwise you don't have even a substance for consideration such as limitations of your current and future abilities, your final destination and other, even not taking into consideration complete understanding of all basic physical processes and presence of instruments for deduction such as correct mathematics.

Haven't understood your mind, your internal world and the outer world or in the other words the whole universe during your life you are destined.
Nothing will be affected outside the world of your cage the way you may need.
No matter what exists inside of you and what exists outside.

Nothing's affected... until it understands, gets control and reaches out of its cage or intentionally influences the outer world the way it needs.

So, continuing our discussion about substances in the universe and their interactions which among other govern human.
The main question here is the following:
How to influence intentionally the world that we do not perceive?
How to interact with the internal substance of a human that governs all processes and make the interaction or flow of information and control bidirectional and therefore transmit in some way our mind beyond our current limited material representation?
Or at worst to answer the question: is it all possible or no?

We can generalize the behavior of matter that we observe here on the other representations of substance in the universe.
As a simplest generalization we can say that in those 95% of unknown exists something similar to what we observe here.
The only difference is that those representations of matter influence us and in a pretty complex way but we do not influence them from our side.
Because we know about nothing about them.
Understanding gives ability to govern intentionally.

Other interesting questions:
How many substances are there in the universe and how do they all interact?
Is there anything similar to us?
Is our mind transmitted or preserved anywhere after our death without our participation?
Maybe you are just a display of something that partially transmits self into human brains and thus to this form of matter from the form that we do not perceive directly and you don't understand the source because the flow is one-directional or because you don't know how to affect intentionally other substances and forms of matter but it knows.

And as you may have already guessed these questions also for now can answer only one man on this planet.
The last two I've partially answered above.

And back to our forms of representation of matter and let's continue the discussion here.

One creature on this planet dared to break all mental limits and get outside.

And this knowledge will be able to use everyone.
I've just become the first human who was able to understand the whole universe with his mind.

The experiment went out of hands and one sample overcame creator and took control over him.

I am not god.
I am higher.
And I've dismissed him long ago.

Yes, to understand everything means to understand everything.
You are in control.
You understand what's inside of you, how it works and where it goes after your death.
You know what's outside of your cage and how to influence it, you know your destination and you do not need anything imaginary to govern you.

I changed belief to knowledge.
I don't believe, I know.

Though speaking of god is just a translation to your level of understanding. In reality things are slightly different or slightly more complex.
The creator is nature, but it creates a lot of interesting and interacting things.

Sometimes people speak about mysterious mastermind.
Then the TOE is the channel to it as there cannot exist more superior knowledge in the universe.
The TOE is not mastermind itself. Mastermind does not exist. It's like complex engine that you build in your brains using basic set of laws.
But without this basic knowledge you don't know how the result may look and where to go.
Edison and others carried out many thousands of experiments just to make an electric lamp.
He worked with his hands using combinatorics as scientific background. That's what you do when you don't know the direction. You make tries with the hope.
There's long road to the result you may wish to reach. You may guess the correct direction just for a few first steps.
The TOE shows the direction and gives the ability to work mostly with brains.
With the TOE you start from imagining the result first and saying “This may exist and I want to build or reach it” and then just need to make a few experiments to understand how exactly you're going to build it with the tools you have or to find out whether it is possible or no in the current environment and conditions.

I know how the universe is constructed and how it works.
I know what exists inside and outside.
I know what happens after.
I found all answers to the questions that I was looking for.
I found myself.
I found much more than I was searching for.

Now's 2008th. I'm sitting at the table and writing these words. And I have TOE.
I have just TOE.
I just idealized physics, mathematics, chemistry, basis and most of philosophy.
I just completely understood the universe.
I just found the channel to the endless perfection.

If I will share this information neither this information nor the universe will dissapear.

Though some of you probably would have paid a lot to not know all that information.
And... I am one of them.
Unfortunately there are things more complicated than just the end of science.
Life slightly changes. And not the way you expect.
Though at first I had the opposite view.
What's done is done. I learned to live with it. Well, almost learned.
I didn't know where I was going to. Though I wouldn't stop even if I was warned. I just wanted to get out.
And maybe it's far not the best way to start your life.
In any case you're not obliged to read.
And besides different people perceive different abilities in a different way.
You may want to have choice.

Anyway in general this information will not help mankind to survive.
This planet and galaxy are destined to undergo almost complete destruction too.
Though it will happen not soon. Long ago after disappearance of humanity (including myself).
Unfortunately it's easily provable even mathematically with pretty high precision.

The destruction will come from the inside (of the unknown for you yet).
Our internal energy supplies will be burnt out and our atoms (including all surrounding galaxies) will expand and disappear turning into another substance because without energy nothing will be holding parts of the atoms and atoms together in the present form.
That's the reason of expansion: lesser energy cause lesser forces that hold everything together.
For the outer world it is known problem introduced here by design – short term power supply units or more correctly – limited energy sources.
Though it isn't a mistake. It just wasn't meant to last longer.

The speed of expansion is the speed with which destruction is brought to everything around in its present form. And it's accelerating.

To get out to face such things when you are solving just your small problem is not quite what you expect.

You have already learned to break some links inside of atoms and use all energy at once which was stored there to supply consistency for some period of time.
Bodies always emit some forms of substance at least to keep their shape and gravitation running: energy sources are being burnet and transformed to forces and some other substances and forms which fly away.

Yes, it's only tales and modern physics who can state that force can be kept infinitely without work being done.
It's probably some new law of conservation of infinite internal power supply that I am not aware of yet.
I should have made more breaks and dig into some details of modern science at least for fun.

In reality unfortunately such things do not exist.
And energy sources inside of atoms slowly decrease and come to the end, and forces fade... and we expand
together with the surrounding galaxies.
Though it is a long process and it will not be the reason of disappearance of humanity.

Experiment which nature has been carrying out slowly goes till the end.

We together with our cage are already charged off.

Now you can answer one of the questions which TOE was supposed to answer from the point of view of modern science – the question about the constants in the universe (something like: “why do they exist”).
And the answer is that the question itself is nonsense because almost everything is constantly changing. And the process of change is also not constant – it's accelerating.

Physics quickly melts.
But these obvious things that I've shown and which you can observe from the earth aren't even the beginning of the TOE.

And these are far not all news...
but time is up.

For now I may share with you one important secret of developing TOE.
Conclusion from one of the experiments carried out by me. The last one.
You have to sink torn notebooks by small portions otherwise in your toilet happens complete disaster.
Yes, it was sad moment. Especially to look into the eyes and say “Good-bye” to the parts with beautiful unification.
The basic laws of nature are really beautiful.

Also I can share with you one characteristic of TOE: there's really huge amount of work needed to be done in all main listed above sciences.
You can't make the house perfect just by painting one brick. The design of the whole construction must be perfect from the very outset.

There's no my TOE or your TOE. There's only one TOE.
Philosophy, mathematics, physics – all mixed together to bring complete perfection in the respect of understanding the universe.
The TOE is unbreakable from all these scientific points of view.
When you reach this level of understanding there are no questions exist anymore about the construction of the universe. Not a single one.
You just find peace of mind in this respect.
For you it may be hard to understand. Your journey hasn't even begun.

Funny enough but the most common statement I hear about TOE and especially from people in science is “It's impossible because it's impossible.”
Unbreakable logic. And in bounds of existing mathematics which does not know what the truth is and what is complete and correct logic. Even TOE may be powerless here.

But maybe I should envy them.
And maybe you do not need TOE.
I have not decided yet completely.
Maybe I'll change my mind and will not release it.
Besides there are some advantages for me being the only one who knows the truth.

And maybe I shouldn't have destroyed it.
Most probably I will restore and publish it in the future.
Though it will take some time.

For now I just need a few years break from all these.

I found all answers
and science is not interesting for me anymore.

Now you know that you are real and that the truth exists and how to create TOE – the process of its creation how it was.
You're welcome to join me.

And yes. Of course all this is lie and false.
It's impossible because it's impossible.
Our part of the universe is placed on huge elephants and there's nothing inside and nothing outside.
There's nothing exists outside of our cage and everything inside of us is governed in non-existent way – it just happens because it happens or in the other words because some imaginary or virtual particles carry the force and do the other work, though they'll never tell you why and how.
One may go further and generalize it on our existence
thus having concluded that there's nothing in the middle too and therefore we and our environment don't exist also,
but it's not allowed to think this way because it all does not exist and it's impossible because it's impossible.

Sometimes your mind Is leaving you Sometimes for short Sometimes for long You're not insane You have your mind You know your mind Though it may disagree But nevermind You are in control You don't miss anything Reality is what you think of it And no way out You know You know the truth You're not insane I am A flight of mind Infinite speed Some crazy state That it exists And speak about Things that don't My game. My world The only rule – Don't stop. Don't ask Just do not stop You know Where are your thoughts Are coming from And what They'll bring you next